Dear Dane

The world around me now is obviously being presented as a big deal.
At the same time, mascots are being thrown out there. How could some people dare to expect knowing their own fallacies?
The price some people have to pay for being an elitist or having high standards or a high bar to live up to. I feel my life is continuously transitionging in that aspect and me being a snowflake in a snowflake world, it gets complicated and difficult to find grounds of reason and/or fairness.
I already know that there is no such thing as the perfect person. Some would argue that if I were serious about religion, I really should be a nun. I'm not ready to make that decision either.
I can't see all your issues. I think you may have some sort of mutual love for me that I don't understand yet and if my math is right or wrong, I love you anyway.
nuclear leaks....... shpleaks. ........
I'm going to try to express myself anyway with hopes that I'm not a walking nuclear disaster even after being referred to as a mascot.

Part of my law of snowflake, is that I think outside of the box. Even with you being a comedian, I understand you still have parts of you that are serious. I know that about myself while numbers of people still have a box mentality.

Sexuality. I know you're outgoing. Even sexually outgoing. I've already been stamped myself in the movie 9 with being sexually outgoing. I'm sorry I have to bring it up. I've never really aimed to be sexually exploitive or a pornstar. I'm not of the Roman culture. Of all the things in my life I want control over, sexuality is one of them. I have explained how I see some people as being sadists and tormenting. I'm more offended by a sadist who puts me through something they know I don't want than being offended over negative sexual remarks or namecalls. I would be called pancakes anyday than feel being sadistically preyed upon. I live a very tormented life. I see this is not news that you are happy to hear.
If you really are being serious with me, I really want to satisfy you.
I hate feeling misunderstood though that I want to be in control of making specific choices and am exclusive with some people. I'll admit it. I don't think I should have to feel ashamed that I'm not going to be a walking free sexual buffet to anyone. I have a lot of repressed thoughts of feeling misunderstood for that reason.
I am exclusive to you to try to make you feel satisfied. Outside of me pushing my limits to please you, I would not do other things for people. I really do have a religious background and despite some experiences I've had, there are times when I still want you (or whatever person I'm with in my papillon) to hold my hand or take your time with me. There are times when I don't feel so horny or erotic or turned on because I really feel awkward or disgusted by some sexual offenses. This is why I want you to hold my hand or take your time. It is the princess coming out of me. I want you to have some understanding of why I can be difficult.

I'll probably have a letter later..............