Dear Dane

Can't completely see everything yet. .........

A reminder that not everything is sexual but I mean it in a platonic sense. .......

But, I am going back to the issue of sexuality. I consider my life experiences moreso as me being tormented, tested, and avenged by a number of women.
In my college years, I threw a big fit when there were a few women hitting on me. A big fit.
I get sexually offended by both men and women, but when it comes to others labeling me, I think its more of the male ego than me being a lesbian.
There are some women I think are attractive. I really don't want to be with a woman. I just don't.
I'm sick of the torment. I'm sick of the testing. I get very very very offended at the way some women sexually offend me. There are a lot of feelings that are negative that I either forget or am forced to suppress. It is so disgusting, humiliating, private, and personal I hate feeling like I have to let it bleed out.

When you get sexual I won't deny that you turn me on. I was never out to judge you for it. There are times when I've felt off and on with you that I have ignored you. But you've had plenty of other places of satisfying yourself. I let you go, but understand I have to keep you in sight.

I really am sorry that there are things about me that may not match your standards or what you want. I've come to terms with my reality. I will go to my own limits at perfectionism, but it's not something I'll beat myself up over.

In another rumor, I think the Groves sisters are around. Its always confusing in the matrix. Trina is married to Zito and there was a movie I saw awhile ago: Match Point a movie with a tennis couple that made me paranoid. He reminded me more of Mike Jones but he also reminds me of Zito. Trina isn't on my good side. I've never wanted anyone to die at the same time. In so many instances, I've thought it better to endure drama than to do something extreme with the cards that have been handed. Extreme has already happened, but I've yet to kill anyone.
I thought I would add that gossip for more communication clarity.

I think I've also caught on to why they call you Wisconsin. I've commented that the show Chuck is cheesy. I'm sorry I havn't been keeping up with it. Maybe people paint the picture anyway of how they puzzle the matrix together and I don't completely get it still. I saw today's show. Some idea, but its cheesy and it does make me smile some.