Monday, December 12, 2011

You want to talk more about the baby?

Seth

I'm not ignoring the jabs that you are making at me. I'm taking it more as you pulling me towards you for conversation. With one "god," comment you made, you seem like you take life easy and are lighthearted. You don't seem too sincere about any jokes of comment.
Still, I am being serious and sincere. I'm not taking back the comment I made yesterday about the 16 and pregnant thing. It isn't my fault that I'm poor. I don't know if you get or even question my math yet about being poor and vulnerable. I also don't know how you do the math with me being immature, or a "later 2 year maturation" of an 18 year old. How do you really do the math with immaturity?
I was actually talking to my therapist today about people with the god complex and their entitlement to be pigs. That was some of my biggest issues today and I also talked a lot about my job issues. Maybe you actually want to have some kind of conversation over it or want a piece of my vulnerability. Maybe you just want to make jabs at me or poke fun at me just for your own victimizing sake.
You are showing your confidence and a sense of harmlessness about the baby issue, and there is a possibility that I could be getting deceived by you, me, or the mixture of us. Edward didn't want the baby.......... and foxes, they are technically different than wolves but still, it's own species of dogs.
Besides one main hunch with you being compared to a severe chauvenist, there is another hunch that I have noticed and will remain vague about for now. While I know for myself what my own personal damages and scars are, I do know the gist of some of my history and why my life is so damned and fucked up the way it is. I do know for myself the effects with how certain things have messed up my life.
By the way, "Mitzia," is originally named "Mitzie, and sometimes I have a hard time in deciding between just the two itself of which sounds better. Mitzie means "she has a mind of her own." I have some other names like "Cocheta- that which can't be fathomed," "Corazon-heart" and they are both actually native american indian names. I can't remember the origin of mitzie. I'd have to look it up again. I also like "Kylie," and "Serenity." Tough names to decide from.
I'm happy and unhappy for my baby. I can still make my own future goals, but it is hard to see what lies ahead in my future. Not that I believe in psychics or anything, but with what my history has been and my experience at life and knowing some predicatabilies, I'm not sure what to expect or plan. I still know I have a lot of things I am capable of doing.............
I don't know how to specifically ask about your life?

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