Dear Anderson

For now, I have decided that I'm going to be confused with you for a period of time.
Some days are different than others. While some would blame the bipolar diagnosis on me; I still have some awareness of what is going on in the world around me. I definitely am provoked and hated on some days more than others. I don't always know why or any causes with the extents of hate that I experience. You might as well listen to the weather man and ask him why some days are more windy than others or why there are natural disasters.
I will admit that in this early time of day I feel at ease. I feel I am being reminded of some past justices that have been met while not knowing the exact details. Some other talk is also being said and for me to pick and choose to see what some gossip is can be time consuming. I pick and choose at some info at my own leisure and time. I don't always know all gossip or what some of my biggest obstacles or oppositions could be..........
Hot in Cleveland. I took note that it is on your show for today. It is very possible that I could be strongly connected to that show. The show could also be a piece of capitalism where a large number of women have shares in the capitalism. I have not been watching the show. I do not know the specific drama of what is going on. I'm not even out to people please over anyone's approval in being called "hot" for whatever "friends I choose."
Characters? Besides Betty (which I could assume is a symbolic capitalism of every female competing against each other with her own bigotry through Betty's role)(she could also be representing herself) my guesses of the characters are: Maggie, Erin, Megan Shaffer, and myself.
My mind hasn't changed over anything. A clear rehash:
I see them all as controlling. It could go back to a letter a few weeks ago "whether it be pimps or catholic school teachers" I think they all have times of being too stuck on themselves to have any regard over other considerations. The fact is, my door is not open to them. I do not choose to personally befriend them and share my drama with them. I refuse to be subjected to their opinions, beliefs, or even standards.
Besides the past battles and tyranny, it seems as if it is they who are being held to blame over my oppression. Ok, I have mentioned their names myself.
I have already taken some scars by a few men who have seriously discriminated against me to be in favor for them.
Do I blame them for my oppression?
Only if they make the choice to not let go of me. If they continue on with their tyranny and ignore my obvious reactions and my rejection of them. If they continue to use whatever men they are with to either hurt me for their Bonnie and Clyde relationship and/or try to use their relationship to control me in whatever way. There is a slight possibility that they are not really responsible for the dictatorship of the system. But with what I presently believe, I think they probably would be responsible for trying to control my life and damn it in anyway.
With Maggie and Erin, they were the past high school relationship that was never that close to me in college. I feel they were still involved in my life in some ways, but I deny that I let them have any control over me.
As for Megan? There is a specific personal drama there. There was drama in the church and drama with her husband Shawn. I really would not be surprised if the controlling womanizer on your show last week was Shawn's foodstamp. Am I necessarily out to get Megan and Shawn? Yes and no. I may not completely know them, but I have an awareness of the control freaks they are. They could most likely beat a lot of other predators out if there were to be a holier than thou competition, but I still consider them to be predators in my life. Megan is difficult, because there is some level of agreement with her, but I think she would use the extent of agreement to her advantage to say that she owns me or has any kind of supremacy or domination. Shawn really has been chauvenistic in the past. If he is wondering what I think, I did love him at one time and let go of him, but I will not let go if he were to make any attempt to hurt or ruin me with his tyranny. I will not be subjected to him or Megan or anyone at all.
Only a real military analyst would know who holds the most responsibility for my oppression with the number of wealthy people who are involved in my life.
I am very aware at how sensitive of a subject the blame game is and how many men and even women would die (including the wealthy) to beat me to death over the blame game. The extent of chauvenism and a chauvenist's blame varies from person to person. I think of all of the violence in my life, that the cause for so many people hating on me is due to the relentless cause of the blame game. Yes, some people are drug addicts and messed up crackheads, but even a crackhead can be violently relentless with the blame game.
I could definitely sing in the choir with Megan in her capitalist indie connection of the band "Metric." But back to the beginning, the agreement in this case of music lyrics only goes to so much of an extent, as with any other compared agreement.
And once again, not all lyrics match and it is the gist of the song.
http://youtu.be/LqldwoDXHKg

http://youtu.be/FRtd8ArvH_s

http://youtu.be/FVbWcPyoQfM

This song does have me singing a little in the choir. But, the whole "black sheep" analogy as well as any "prodigal" analogy is not on my agenda. It is her freedom to have free speech and free expression and free religion. She does have some intelligent acknowledgement in this song and other songs in being accurate of emotions and feelings. Do I consider it as me letting her coddle me or crawling in tears as being the prodigal? No. I like the mechanical bull analogy because she does sense and see the oppression of a vulnerable victim. I also would add on for me or anyone, that a person does not have to be of any religion to be free of oppression. Everyone should be entitled to their rights of humanity.