Dear Jon

Jon
I'm following you, but not sure how to perceive you. I really did make a Dakota claim years ago when the movie: "Man on Fire," came out. Jon, I'm not sure how you do your math in the head with a lot of things to sum me up, but I can make some assumptions from there........ Jon, Although we have never literally hooked up, I would assume you would be wanting angry or rough/violent sex for having your own way of saying you think I am immature. Jon, Maybe you are so serious about not just thinking that I am immature but that you have dictated my mind into thinking the same thing about myself, that you want to give me an "ego boost," by saying I am finally of age for you. How could I ever live without your pat on my back? Maybe something else is going through your head where you've been mad at how I've been handling your stockholm through all this time and you want to "knight me into womanhood," because of my said submissions to your demands. To you, it is normal and the officially mature thing for a woman to especially be sexually submissive to stockholms. Think what you want to think, I am just being for now to be. Jon, I don't think I've even denied how much you've already turned me on in the stockholms. I think you've known it for yourself but you just don't want to say it. Maybe you've taken some of my silences in different ways. You may have taken my anger in undermining ways as well. With some things you have said; I have sincerely meant it when I did everything to lock you outside of my life. Some of your anger and hateful attacks havn't been seductive at all. You know you have intentionally wanted to turn me off. You really have done a lot of unforgiveable things. Jon, If I could assume more, you may hate my snobbery and want me to be more talkative. Yes and no.
I also took note of "Breanna." I don't know if you connect me to her or not, or if you are expecting me to say something to her. She may have a large amount of responsibility to how I've been damned and you want me to make a large plan and time investment to get revenge. Besides not knowing all of the actual facts of responsibility and what the specifics are that some people have done, you have already belittled her as well by undermining her for her job title. Maybe you are already being the white knight to bruise her ego?
Jon, I still don't like the idea of your Prince expecting me to know everything about everyone and what the mess is in my life. I feel like you are expecting me to be a female 007 know-it-all and it feels like such a chore to make my living out of taking care of my enemies. I know I said I never lost confidence in my intelligence or judgement and still mean it, but I think it is an extreme route to go to make my world revolve around my enemies and live only for revenge and capitalist's sake. I still don't even understand the entirety of politics in capitalism.
I don't know. From this distance, all I can do is brain storm with some hints. Jon, If you want me to play young and naive, I will do as best as I can. I already said I don't have the hooker heart that can act through anything and that includes the polar opposite of a hooker heart: naivety. But Jon, I will act as best as I can. You may just have some appreciation of my sexuality and sincerely want me to be your sex slave Brittany again. Ok, it is no longer expired and back on the market with you. I just don't know how I'm always going to be able to pull it off when you test me the way you test me sometimes. I'll probably do yoga tmw. The Niner's restaurant wasn't opened when I went there, by the way. So, I did find out about the available hours and will just go back another day when they are opened. Uncle Jack's was pretty good though. Not sure if you are in relation to that one. I feel tired and think I'm going to take a nap now.