Anderson

I really don't know who to direct this to. I feel raped right now and I can't see who is telling me to "suck it." It could be Jon, but I'm not sure if it is Jon.
I'll start with Howie: he is being communicative on his end. My guesses were obviously wrong, but if I am supposed to have an "Adam," I'm obviously not understanding this connection. I don't know who I am supposed to pay attention to; I don't know how to be responsive to any threats. My life is in danger and I don't know what to do about it. It has become abstract again.
Next is Stacy. How dare I deny her beauty. God, I would love to see her flash her legs in front of my face again. What a privelage to not miss.
Anderson, with so many agendas, it is hard to figure out what people are expecting. Maybe Stacy wants to try to prove she can handle the truth, or maybe she is just being relentless with herself. Either way, I feel I can never win. I feel a lot of my life suffers because I am not only being forced to suck it but also forced to say what I think about sucking it. Some people can't handle it, and even you could hand me a sciprt any time now. If it is Denny who is telling me to suck it, I can't believe you would let Denny get away with his rape. I am definitely calling Denny a rapist for entitling himself for me to answer to his judgement and thinking I should take a "lesson," from him and neverendingly be lectured. Anderson, I've already said mercy and the worst rapes keep getting shoved in my face to suck it. And if forced, I will suck it for the sake of saving my life and my baby. It definitely is nauseating to be raped like this but I do it for the sake of myself and my baby. It is just another example where I know I'm going to take another hit for being honest and saying whose sake it is really for, but I just do not know how to breathe. Even after saying this, I still continue to get tested with rape in the worst of ways. Besides the rape being denied, it is further denied of who can't handle the truth.
My sister may possibly be throwing herself in the fight with Stacy right now that I am in a denial that I am their lusting lesbian that just has to have them.
Anderson, I have a hard enough time dealing with life already, I can't believe you would shove more arrogant rape in my face like this. Ok Katie, how could I deny your hotness either? God Katie, I just wish you would throw yourself in front of me more often. I could stare at you all day in playboy magazines or just yourself. How could I ever deny you?
Have I done a good enough job of sucking it Anderson with whoever's sick dick I am being forced to suck right now? Have I sucked it enough? What ever can I do to give an orgasm or pleasure or help someone get it up? Whatever can I do Anderson?

I just don't know how to not breathe.