Dear Jon

Jon, I'm still not completely getting you. So I don't hurt your feelings, I'm leaving out "dumbass," this time, but I am guessing you have some sexual hunting game going on. This isn't about my pleasure, but your sadistic pleasure in gunning me down with your interrogations and trash talk. You do keep your predatoryness confusing though when I'm the contraception woman that you're supposedly getting off on. I just give up and don't care. I'm letting you win this one: slap me around and gun me down and have your way...... I wonder if you're even mocking my complaints of sexual correlations as well. Whether or not you want to be a Peter Pan with sex is up to you.
Right now, I don't consider myself seeing a lot of guys or having a lot of men in my life. Some guys it's just flirting and nothing more. I know in the past, I have had a thing for other guys. I know one of the main ones you are aware of is Dane. But, I have never subjected you to any of the guys I have had things for. Dane is another psycho with the whole subjective thing, but I never made the choice to subject you to Dane. Dane could have done some things on his own, but whatever he or any other potential guy could have done is not something that I am responsible for.
It isn't fair for you to be so one-sided like that anyway. It is obvious that you have real wealth and fame, but it still isn't fair with the way you aren't being fair. Besides so many other women you've cheated me with, you're technically married..... I don't know how to think about you anymore with the reality and things that have been said and done... When it comes to some thoughts, I really don't have a strong opinion at this time.
.....I'm going to watch the police show soon. I still feel bad that I missed out on it. When I was reminded that day; I've just been too exhausted to be awake and get things that are going on. I have a lot of entertainment on my to do list to watch and that even includes a newborn video. I don't have much else to say right now...