Tell Me Baby ....

Seriously, where did you come from? I finished off Californication's Season 4 yesterday. The first time I remember noticing you noticing me, was probably 2009 or 2010 when you had your pedigree commercial. I was assuming you were Shawn talking to me at the time. I seriously choose to give you your own personal credit right now... Back to Californication. I did get myself knocked up around 2011. Mitzi was born 2012. I can't believe how time flies. How much of the show did you write or produce? In some ways Pamela Adlon is a likeable character, but I am seriously offended that I was being compared to her. What a shameful maternity she had. I never said those things and I would never would. I have never made the choice to be a crackhead either. Further theory: you are a drug lord who does not want to kill me and instead, makes me up for yourself, and puts that on me to be the lied about, made up hypocrite so you have nothing to worry about. Why not be buried alive under more things? Why not make an assumption out of me in being a crackhead? It was pretty mean of you to trash talk me as if that is what I was like in my pregnancy. I'm also upset that you would let John Atchison have that much of a credit to a relationship like I ever wanted or loved him like that. Who in the world else could my Runckles be? It isn't good that you're being compared to John Calipari either. He supposedly has another arbitraged share with both John and Jon and it isn't a good thing that you would be compared to their name. It isn't a good thing at all. You have some hidden angers to trash talk me with Pamela like that. You notice me somewhere around 2009, 2010 and since then, I somehow stuck to you and you have been keeping me in the corner of your eye all along and taking note of me for whatever your agenda is..... While you're still here and playing me, I do believe that Gillian or your ex is your #1 right now. You're keeping their love tested while keeping them played at the same time. I have no other choice than to continue to wait you out. I do consider you to be the one cheating on me right now, and especially since X files will be having an 11th and 12th new season, you and Gillian probably will make more future plans for each other ahead. If you wanted to stick it out with me, I would believe that you would most likely cheat or eventually cheat on me with her. You already have, yet you still want to hold on to me LIKE I THINK YOUR CHEATING IS NOTHING. Don't you dare think I won't deny the victim that I still am. Don't you dare think that I would be willing with your polygamy and that I would seriously settle and not prepare and get jet ready. I can only keep waiting you out in your games and sometimes violent possessiveness. ................