Strong and Serious Expectations

Ok, the gossip and talk first.... I'm getting the gist that it is "Sam" that you've been beefing it out with. First off, I do not give Sam the James Bond credit. Daniel Craig reminds me of Mike Jones. When I made a serious enemy out of Sam on my end; I made a serious enemy out of him. There were no games or given credibility thereafter. I don't know what to say much with Mike Jones. We have had a thing for each other and our own betrayals of each other. We were never that close, and Mike has not always been an easy man to follow. I think he has shares with Bradley Cooper too. It almost looks like it is Kate Hudson he would want to presently threaten me with but I think he already knows you and I have a thing going on. Mike hasn't brought me to hate him, and I'm not sure what to think of him. .... Back to Sam, would I rather be your used victim against Sam, or would I know that I would probably be used again later for whatever sexual impulse where I could be that much more disturbed in knowing you had some kind of bisexual relationship with him? I would prefer to be disturbed at a lower level. It isn't that you're an entire blackmail. I am glad that you would be refusing against Sam. We're still on the rocks though..... It looks like it was Steve Curry who was putting the Blake Shelton gossip on you where he made you look like you were cheating on me more with Liz and hating on me for now lowering my standards or expectations. I do question you with Liz being another additional woman you would add to your harem, but I think that Steve is a corrupt man who would make up a lie or an exaggerated or cancerous assumption. You seem to compete against each other more than wanting to be in a bisexual relationship together, which is a good thing. I'm still somewhat a little disturbed over the whole ordeal with Steve and know there is still a lot of mystery to it. While you don't completely snub me altogether; you're still pretty selective with my issues that you will or won't talk about. I'm mad at the way you've dodged the bullets with your cheats, my questions especially on Stacy and Bree Ann, and now it looks like it could be Autumn you want to threaten me with too. I didn't click on the link, but I may want to "be persuaded into eloping you more than not eloping." "Just take the naïve or doormat road Sarah." David, my rules are mostly based on the choice of the pursuit. While I have terribly had a lot of Don Drapers and men who believe in open relationships pursue me through the years, it doesn't mean I was always out to make those kind attracted to me. I know it is their barbarianism that keeps wanting to control me and force me to conform to their open relationship and swinger agenda. I think it is very mean, sadistic, and depressing. When they make the choice to pursue me, they make the choice to pursue me. No matter how severe or detailed of Shariah laws there are with the wealthy dating the non-wealthy I WILL NOT LOWER MY EXPECTATIONS IN BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP. I HAVE ALWAYS EXPECTED FAITHFULNESS. I have felt very humiliated and devalued through the years because it HAS BEEN A VERY LONG TIME TO BE WITH A MAN WHO AGREEABLY THINKS THAT FAITHFULNESS AND TRUST SHOULD BE TREATED AS NORMAL AND SERIOUS. The kind that thinks that open relationships are the Utopia or paradise IS NOT MY UTOPIA OR PARADISE. I understand the way "if you give a kid a piece of candy" rule applies to this too. If I lower my standards and expectations for you, I lower my standards and expectations for any and all other men in the arbitrage no matter how wealthy or how poor. IT IS ALSO CONSIDERED TO BE RIGGED OR FORCED TO FAIL. It isn't that I would even want to think about or consider lowering my expectations for you. DESPITE HOW FAMOUS OR WEALTHY YOU ARE; I DO EXPECT YOUR FAITHFULNESS WHEN YOU PURSUE A RELATIONSHIP WITH ME, WANT TO LOVE ME, AND WANT MY LOVE. David, I love you too in some ways, but I'm not a total sellout of love for you. Despite love and lust, there is always the matter of the choice. Right now, I can't be agreeable or accepting of what the status quo of our relationship is. The status quo of the relationship is not good enough for me.

Tell Me Baby ....

Seriously, where did you come from? I finished off Californication's Season 4 yesterday. The first time I remember noticing you noticing me, was probably 2009 or 2010 when you had your pedigree commercial. I was assuming you were Shawn talking to me at the time. I seriously choose to give you your own personal credit right now... Back to Californication. I did get myself knocked up around 2011. Mitzi was born 2012. I can't believe how time flies. How much of the show did you write or produce? In some ways Pamela Adlon is a likeable character, but I am seriously offended that I was being compared to her. What a shameful maternity she had. I never said those things and I would never would. I have never made the choice to be a crackhead either. Further theory: you are a drug lord who does not want to kill me and instead, makes me up for yourself, and puts that on me to be the lied about, made up hypocrite so you have nothing to worry about. Why not be buried alive under more things? Why not make an assumption out of me in being a crackhead? It was pretty mean of you to trash talk me as if that is what I was like in my pregnancy. I'm also upset that you would let John Atchison have that much of a credit to a relationship like I ever wanted or loved him like that. Who in the world else could my Runckles be? It isn't good that you're being compared to John Calipari either. He supposedly has another arbitraged share with both John and Jon and it isn't a good thing that you would be compared to their name. It isn't a good thing at all. You have some hidden angers to trash talk me with Pamela like that. You notice me somewhere around 2009, 2010 and since then, I somehow stuck to you and you have been keeping me in the corner of your eye all along and taking note of me for whatever your agenda is..... While you're still here and playing me, I do believe that Gillian or your ex is your #1 right now. You're keeping their love tested while keeping them played at the same time. I have no other choice than to continue to wait you out. I do consider you to be the one cheating on me right now, and especially since X files will be having an 11th and 12th new season, you and Gillian probably will make more future plans for each other ahead. If you wanted to stick it out with me, I would believe that you would most likely cheat or eventually cheat on me with her. You already have, yet you still want to hold on to me LIKE I THINK YOUR CHEATING IS NOTHING. Don't you dare think I won't deny the victim that I still am. Don't you dare think that I would be willing with your polygamy and that I would seriously settle and not prepare and get jet ready. I can only keep waiting you out in your games and sometimes violent possessiveness. ................

Continued Drama Dry

You seem to be taken aback today. If it was all Amish Jim being vain with me like he had a chance, I'm upset at just how much of a chance Jim thinks he has. I'm not understanding your presence today and it doesn't seem to be a strong presence. ... I have never been crazy about the way people have thrown around the word "molesting." I know Bree Ann is one of the most retarded judges of all when it comes to that issue. While I'm hateful against the term, I'm not standing with you too much over the Sandusky label. I hate feeling underestimated, ignored, and looked over. The majority of men have never recognized just how expensive I am WHEN THEY WANT TO MAKE A SERIOUS POSSESSION OUT OF ME. Although I don't always like to hear what some truths are, it is better to tell me the truths of some reds rather than leave me in the dark and continue to make me a victim out of it in the worst unfair way. You're shady and probably do want to beat me up with your popularity contests and betrayals. While I have never given much power to fascism or popularity contests IT IS STILL A BETRAYAL to treat me beneath or at the mercy of it rather than treat me to liberty, civility, OR THE TERRIBLY LOST CONCEPT OF RESPECTING DIFFERENCES OF OPINION. People have always been more guilty of that than I have ever been. I feel ignored where you just don't understand the real serious emotional trauma that comes with your betrayals and supremacies of others. It has always been too insensitive for some people to overlook their gossips and betrayals. While I have never been close to a comparable stalking Qadaffi against other peoples gossip and expecting the most extreme loyalty; I still feel the emotions in being attacked with gossip and betrayal. There always seems to be several more cheats for me to discover whether or not I have strong shares with the cheats or not. You make yourself a questionable Burlusconi, where I'm "every" woman, but it still isn't enough. Angelina is probably one of the women I can be the most cool about, and I have suspected your affair with her there too. You're an undoubtable player and a pretty shady man. You don't seem to go as far as others in being a serious sexual murderer with your "make it nasty song," and being a chauvinist pig. It's not that I'm not taking back the juggernaut statement either; I know you're like that when you're in the red. Angelina supposedly calls you her Jon for some reason and you surprisingly and seemingly have some misery with her, one of the women I have always seen as the most perfect kind. I almost feel you wish I was more judgmental with your drug problem, but I can only just look at you and blink. You obviously don't make a lot of smart choices in being such a player, cheater, foul-mouth, and drug "solution." I don't make the choice to take you for your worse. You are a cliché bad boy where I already know my cliché good girl answer in not wanting to be in that kind of relationship. I don't know what to say to you in your Stockholm anymore. I hate your insensitivity, unfairness, cheating, status quo, and unfair expectations in the status quo. While I sometimes like to look nice I haven't yet been aggressively seeking any more random affairs. I stay beat into submission for now and know I don't understand you.