Just random for now

There are actually a lot of thoughts on my mind in my socialite aspect. Why bring it up and not share? It is just another thing I want to keep to myself for now.
There are several obvious reasons why my life could be dangerous right now. It definitely feels dark and dangerous. It isn't that I've never had this feeling before; there are just times where I feel darkness more than others. Call me spiritual or instinctive; it is one of the two. I hope it goes away soon though. It is just another thing about life where I do whatever I do and say whatever I say and sometimes it is not possible to not breathe or be myself. I feel darkness and threats though. From several places that I can and can't see.
Sometimes I wonder how many wickans or how many secret wickans there are. I don't know if I spelled that right. Sometimes, I think I'm supposed to assume that Jon is not just Jewish, but also has other religious mixtures including being a wickan or some arab religion. He has this evilness about him that goes beyond just chauvenism. Of course he isn't the only person in my life who feels that hateful or dark, but he definitely has an incomprehensible level of hatred. Life feels so deadly overall right now.......
Nothing to say about love life for now. I have another socialite thought in general terms of love life, but it isn't something I care to say now.
I hope I have good luck with crafting sales this year. Time time time. I feel like I have and havn't made enough stuff. Time is running out.
Still thinking about the future but have no other choice but to be very focused with what is going on in the present. With how life has been, I feel unsafe in browsing and planning for the future. Something I will eventually get around to, but on the backburner.
OMG I did a great cooking experiment this weekend in my own home. Some things aren't too hard to put together, but every once in awhile, my cooking attempts can flop. I made a black forest cake and I must say I have to give myself a compliment for how good this cake is. It is an organic mixture, but I threw in some other things too. *Pat on the back*
I signed up for my last race of the season. The only bad thing is the date which is in October. That may be a season for my asthma to kick in. I really wanted to give the next one more effort, but even though I have more time to give myself some training runs, I still have the setback of dealing with asthma. I can handle spring and summer, well, without asthma.