Lots of thoughts

I'll start with religion like I said I would. Although I think Russia probably has some religious agenda, this is about what was written in the NY Times on Modern Love with agnosticism. First off, I remain anorexic about any marriage. Second off, this is me talking to a crowd, not meant for any single person's egocentrism. This is just about me personally, I'm not telling anyone what to believe or how to live. Besides my present agnosticism; I do have a history of Christianity. There are things I love about the Christian faith and things I hate about the Christian faith. Along with hating some systems in general, I could agree that I'm not fond of organized religion as well. The feelings I have about Christianity, I could talk about anyday, and aren't revolved around any individual. Besides any other OCD stalking fit a person would throw; my Christian faith is personal between God and I. I do believe there is a God. Agnosticism isn't the same as atheism. I guess some Christians could call me extreme with living and dying by the sword, but I'd rather it be most personal with God and I, than live by faith as an appeasement to people. To elaborate a little more; I'd rather be called agnostic than a hypocrit. Without faith it is impossible to please God, and a furthered scripture is living by God's word is an example of faith. I still consider myself a person of faith. However, back to the main line: If I were to seriously be summed up, and I live and die by my own sword, I'd rather be called an agnostic than a hypocrit. And just because I'm agnostic does not also mean I am antagonistic and opposite of everything the bible says. I would think it ridiculous and still unagreeable to sit down and have specific scripture read to say what stays and what goes. I'm not too extreme; I'd still call myself a person of faith, but guess who the ultimate judge of character is when I look in the mirror to decide how I live by faith and the extent of faith to which I live? ME! The thought of judgement outside of religion and spirituality that is more based around common law is judgement that is separate from religious judgement. I can see how that factor could leave many confused. And to think a little further, in one specific area; I am against slave labor of any sort. I have many serious issues in defining supremacy and authority. I really do not wish to live to bicker, but sometimes, some things happen in life anyway. To sum up a lot of disputes; I do not believe in imperialism. I do not believe in slave labor. I do not believe in subjecting a being for the sake of another. I have noticed how OCD some people can get over the issue and have a lot of chaos, irrelevance, and crap when the things I do not believe in are applied to work. It bothers me that some people do not have the maturity to understand WHAT IS IN A JOB/CAREER anything a person would want to call it..........
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When I see Mike Jones around, my first immediate thoughts are happy thoughts. But then a lot of things hit me besides naivity and I don't know if I should think happy thoughts when I see him. Life is a blur, but he just is in a good light to me and things are left in a blur or unanswered.
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Not completely sure what to think of Lance right now.
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With Jon it seems to be the same old story said in so many ways. I can make it I can make it I will make it
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I guess Charlie is on vacation this week; I still may eventually have something to say.

There seems to be a lot to read today. I wish I had the time to read more but can only have so much info come and go at once. I have plenty of other things to do and I just can't read or write everything there is to read or write about right now.