Unavoidable

It's not like I have never not avoided a serious issue. I don't like the way I feel to be the present center of blame. So, the advantage I take OF AN EXPENSIVE AND EXPLOITIVE QUESTION, is to my advantage. Personally, I still don't feel like my decency or dignity of a person is fought for enough and yes I have felt that terror for quite some time. It's not just this terrible incidence, but other incidences, when people won't recognize how expensive and exploitive someone is being, how blind I am, and some questions that were never asked "What kind of trial or judgment is that?" So many questions that was never asked. It's not that I say it as the most arrogant dare, but in too many wars of arrogance and narcism and judgment, it is just too hard to care. So, because there is already expensive, obvious, unavoidable, and exploitive elephant in the room, I would say, what is it that is really being asked of me? What is it that I want? I feel the the person's expensive move is to corner me into saying whatever it is I am wanting. Is the person, Bill Gates, a King, a US government, one of many wealthy people? I don't know who wants to know. I know they are stockholming, expensive, and exploitive. So, my main points. I've found many people unsafe and damaging with the way they refuse to be unsafe. I think that stockholms and people wanting to threaten people to be in bondages needs to be taken as a more serious crime with serious punishment and even severe punishment in some cases. I think there are a lot of people who want to play their own cop like it's nothing. I keep many, many thoughts to myself. There is no such thing in wanting to protect my dignity from some people. I think there is such a thing as a ridiculous cop but what is so much worse than a ridiculous cop is a ridiculous person wanting to pose as some authority as a cop and threaten your life with whatever bondage they would want to make up like it is their serious right. What is the most worse is the way they won't have a clue to their actions of bondage. It is one of the most brutal, ugly, beyond mean, and ignorant gut punches a person has when they just stay in denial to their action of bondage and stalking. ....... That statement being said is something I feel my parents are just as guilty as many other people doing. Yes, I think there needs to be more said for my respect, for my decency as a person, for my dignity. It is not something I would ever feel I face my parents with because I know I feel murdered somewhere in the back of my mind when I know I feel seized as my life was their property anyway. According to their eyes, IT IS A JUDGMENT FOR THEM TO DECIDE. A reminder, I think there are many who are guilty with their actions of bondage and seizing. In some people's dead beat battering mouths, it's always for me to be blamed for whichever way they would abuse me. It isn't just my parents. It's hard to imagine abandoning my parents for life and literally never speaking to them again. I know I overreacted over my father in the past because I had a boyfriend who was just too brutally mean for me to understand or comprehend. I know I did have a sense of guilt for my father when it happened and I did offer an apology. There have been times since throughout the years that I have felt deeply disturbed and in question to my dad and his will to threaten me. Some things are just too unspeakable and done unfair in ways I could never prove if I wanted. I don't want to remember those times and would rather not know things for certain. Besides the mistake I made with him, I don't feel I deserve to be treated with such extreme indignation and he isn't someone I gave all of the credit to with the indignation I felt. I give myself some sort of advantage, but I mostly do feel I am being made to be a victim to a cannibal that I cannot see. If it comes down to saving my father's life, I do not want my dad to be murdered. I would have the nerve to say he and others should be punished for the way they choose to threaten me, but no, I do not want my dad to die. I was hoping that this and more would have been water under the bridge longer ago. I blame what I can't see. Cannibalism?, Jealous bondage desperation?, Jealous for control, authority?, an extreme battering narcism?