Taking a Stroll with Prince Harry

I wouldn't mind being taken by your escort for an imaginary walk. I know it is getting a little ugly with David and I. Anything I could say about him is something I've most likely already said to his face. "Springsteen?" Jon is still in a much worse standing than David. Bruce Springsteen is supposedly supposed to have a share with Jon but I think the lowest of the low things about Jon. I think David is low too, but not as much as Jon. I think he has a more sincere way of caring about me, but he just doesn't understand how poisonous and toxic of a man he is. It's like I'll always have to repeatedly take on the same type of man with the same type of problems and it has been more difficult through the years to try to attract the type of relationship and man I want. I've always tried my best to treat a man to his own personal blank slate with: what you see it what you get. I mostly do, but sometimes I feel like I'm being forced to have a strong bias against him with shares of Jon and Shawn. It upsets me that men like that don't give up on me after all of the hell they have put me through and times they have mistreated me in the worst ways. I hate Jon and Shawn's arrogance with a passion and the way they think they could have me back at anytime and that I'd always be available or won for them. Jon and Shawn have always treated me to the most least sense of civility and fairness. I don't understand why they would have any desire for me after making such a serious inferior and underdog out of me. David could be a man who sees and observes things and would make the terrible mistake of misunderstanding me through Jon and Shawn's lies. I don't understand David much and I don't think he understands me. Whatever mission David is supposed to be on...... I am creeped out about the whole David Cameron thing and how that whole arbitrage works with both Jon and John and "Bree Ann." I hate the way they have never wanted to give up on bigamy in the worst sadistic and ignoring way. I have felt lonely in the worst way for the longest time because I know I see Jon for the sadistic and selfish man that he is and it is like nobody will see him for the bad man he is. People expect me to forgive and put up with him after all of the times he fails me. I trashed his entire bigamy by treating him like my Ike Turner or Tommy Lee. I would rather intentionally provoke him to smack me around to give their vanity a harder smack that I WILL NEVER COMPROMISE myself for their unsorry vain sadistic rapacious ass. Why won't people keep them punished more for the Moammar Qadaffi's they are? I seriously can't figure out whatever mission David is on and I'm pretty livid at the way he seems to be another man who expects me to change who I am, and the way I think or feel about things. If a man is SERIOUSLY going to go for a woman he wants, he should have known her better and have been sold on her from the start. (not in a seriously prostituted way). My most serious problem and vibe that I feel with David is that he is not sold on me, does not accept me for who I am, wants to control me and expects me to lay my life down for him. I feel beat up by his fascism and popularity contests. I don't feel like he puts me first. I feel like I get back stabbed by him sometimes and he just doesn't say things to my face enough. As much as he could hate me for going against his double standard with loyalty and gossip, I know he has already betrayed me in some ways. I hate when fire begets fire to war and cheating games, but it is how relationships naturally roll sometimes. I have my own reasonable problems against him that he doesn't seem to back down from enough or be pussy whipped to care about me enough. It is so painful and hurtful to feel so betrayed by him and he is so emotionally insensitive about it. I don't want you to feel like I am double crossing you either but I probably will include David in the conversation. There is a certain way I'm still his and can only keep waiting on him. I really think that it is Gillian he has had most of a thing for but he has been keeping me played with her the entire time. And being against being too loyal for David, it is for the sake of my own pride to say that he is the forceful one. He stays and forces me to stay with him in some ways. I have no choice in it. He is the forceful one that I can only wait on.