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I saw your sign yesterday with the "red haired wife." ha. you player. What would you do if I dyed my hair red? Is this a serious suggestion? lol. I actually was going to eventually get my hair highlighted again after I get other expenses taken care of. Oh Colin, I don't know what to do from this point. Besides that sign with a better odds guessing game, I don't feel wanted enough. Personally, I found it crazy yesterday when you were being figurative in talking about "seeds," and however it literally relates in basketball. Boy do you really know how to make women feel like a piece of meat or breeding body. That was a crazy thing for you to say, so womanizing. Maybe I am in the top pick of women you would want to knock up. However, being in the top pick from you isn't enough from me. I hate feeling second best. I hate feeling that I could be threatened once more from another psychotic retard about subjectivity and "queens lording over me." You love me or you don't. You put me first or you don't. Because of this fact and feeling not wanted enough and not put first enough, you won't be my baby making match either. I'm upset about it all. I don't want you to keep playing me if there seriously is a threat there. I am rightful of myself AND I WON'T BE OWNED OR SUBJECTED TO ANYONE. Some men just aren't smart enough to get and understand the "You love me or you don't concept." There is competition and playing games that only go so far. While some women will be a dog in certain ways, there are ways that I AM A DOG TO NO ONE. It is not ok to compare some people the way people do. It is not ok to put a person's life on the line or subject them to another the way they do. I had a feeling you would break my heart and I feel it is breaking now. I didn't mind you being around to keep me protected from Jon or other psychotic abusers. I just don't want you to lead me on any more than you already have because I will not be second best and living with the same problem with another man of him putting someone else above me. Don't lead me on anymore. I'll find someone else.

good news, bad news.

The good news is that it looks like you want to be my friend and earn my trust in some way. You almost look like a pimp role, but not necessarily selling me out. You're just being agreeable about responsibility. If you really were into me, I'd find it awkward of you wanting to support another man with me. Because you are new and because of the rapport that was never made, I have more grace to offer you compared to a lot of other people. This is another reason I get so angry in arbitrage when people want to have a shared credit for things they have never had the real credit for. Anyway, I really didn't think that you were married. When I wiki'd you, the page said you were married and divorced. The bad news is that you presently have a wife. I'm not the type that intentionally seeks out married men, or find more of a motivational challenge when I discover a guy is married. He might as well tell me that he is gay. Through the years, my innocence has evolved. If a man ever wanted to leave his wife for me; I'd let it happen. Further rapport is when I am seeking a relationship, I am seeking a straight, monogamous man. I am old fashioned and proud of it. I know the kind I'm looking for is kind of like believing in Santa Claus, because my brutal discovery was that it seems everybody believes in a bisexual open marriage any more. I have been so depressed through the years. I do get possessive and I like when a man is possessive of me. It isn't that I believe in slave labor. There are times when I hate possessiveness, because it feels like it is nothing but slave labor. The man wants to own me for what? He wants to keep me for what? I have never been in a healthy possessive relationship. It scars me. ........... Colin, did you seriously give me a chanceless chance with you criticizing my parents messy house? A little too arrogant and chauvinistic there. The comment isn't really going to keep me on my toes. ha! ....... You seem to not mind my friendship or me being a little clingy with you. I don't think I've scared you off and you haven't completely scared me off. If you are trying to scare me off, you're going to have to be louder, but please don't be too mean. I am sensitive you know. I don't know what your entire outlook or agenda is. I'm coming off you some to look out for other prospective guys. There really haven't been a lot that I can see, but I'll be around anyway.