All words remain the same

Stop enslaving me to yourself. While I made my comments with Dave yesterday; I'm sure you're informed of what they are. But more personally to you: it isn't we are just black and white, we are an extreme clash of color. I have always believed in AND FELT MORE THAN COMFORTABLE in a straight monogamous relationship. As comfortably common the concept used to be; it is so rare to see it and believe it anymore. I don't think you realize how much it depresses me that such relationships almost seem to be like thinking Santa Claus or the Easter Bunny is real. I hate how long it has been since I could connect with someone who feels the same way I do with relationships. Your way of life has always been awkward and deeply disturbing to me. Not only do I know the male whore you are with women; it is disturbing to know the male whore you are with men too. I hate that you would even want me to visualize you being with a man. You are disturbingly gross. I hate your prejudices that much more. I hate you would want me to be a bisexual swinger with you. That is not the life or heaven to me. I want a man who is mine and for me to be his. I want him to be jealous if anything sexual were to ever happen with me and another. WHILE YOU COULD BE GETTING SEXUALLY JEALOUS, YOU STILL HAVE THE MOST UNFAIR JEALOUSY. I've told you time after time it has felt like nothing but slave labor. You know you have never made me your number one, and I'd still damn you for the insincere way you would obligate yourself to make me your number one. Like you would ever be monogamous if I were the sincere number 1. We don't go together. Your heart will always be somewhere else and it isn't right for you to be so damn territorial with me. You know it has always been about you and what you think you deserve to have while I'm damned to live in my misery of you. Another fresh reminder is the way you have always made me my sister's inferior. You still have yet to even attempt to avenge me against her sick judgment and sexual abuse and she is desperately rambling on once again that I am guilty of having an incestuous lesbian eye and crush on her. AFTER ALL THIS TIME HER CRACKHEADED MESS STILL HAS NOT BEEN CLEANED UP. I FUCKING HATE YOUR GUTS FOR TRUSTING HER AND HER CRACKHEADED JUDGEMENT AND GANGRAPE OVER ME YOU DUMB FUCK BASTARD MAN. YOU'RE JUST AS DESPERATE AND HATEFUL OF A CRACKHEADED BASTARD AS HER. DAMN YOU FOR KEEPING HER VAINNESS FED THAT MUCH FOR THAT LONG YOU BASTARD.