my screaming flower

A little too direct of a title I know.... What are you Vonny? If you have a lot of credit to own up to with the way you were tormenting me in my blind side; you leave me with no choice in seeing you as a severe enemy. Is it that I've hurt you too much or is it you have a demand to want to be in control? A part of me wants to be a liar for the first time when I say "there are masters, and then there are want-to-be-masters." I'd lie to say, sure you're such a master, but I'm still a little too feisty for you. It is so painful that you still have to have me. My mind can't completely take it or get whatever everything with us is. Are you really having the worst unfair nerve with you being my barbarian and wanting to put the control freak on me? I think there are things about you that are most likely going to be too damaging for me, and I'm not going to understand how on earth would you want to keep me and want me with past and potential damages? I think the last thing you would want to hate me for is wanting to berate on me with whatever control freak you think I am. That is one extremely unfair and unbearable move. Watch it beast. When I'm with someone, it matters to me that I feel very accepted with who I am. It matters that the man accepts and hopefully more than likes the way I look and that he likes me for who I am as a person. You do look like Zack too, and if he was supposedly one of your arbitrage people, he was meaning to underdog me for who I am as a person. I still feel anything but beat by his personality, but were you really wanting to hate on my personality like him? I also couldn't handle if you had a same share as David for wanting to cut me short and putting the butt end on me as his fellow gangster. I'm not sure of your truths, but if you've damaged me too much in the past and want to keep hating on me the same; I seriously don't understand why you would keep considering me for yourself. Maybe you are just being a sadist with me right now by killing to be in control, but I'm not completely understanding our situation for what it is. I'm not sure what you are stockholming me for and what all the bondages are that you want me in, but I'm still staring at you with my Bruno "nothing on you." I could see myself hating on you with more of my same self flattery and I need more of a straight answer with what your real motives are when you just have to keep me and stay in control. Give me more honest relief and stop wanting to keep me if you are only going to be damaging against me.