Onward Ho

Some fails aren't easy. This past week was a set back. I've been in financial distress for awhile, but I'm upset that this festival didn't work. I at least was given more hours from my one job, but had I not went to the festival, I would have had that much more money because I could have worked at my other regular job. I am behind and not ahead and it upsets me that the festival wasn't worth it. I really love the thrill of my personal sales and entrepreneurship, but this fail was too costly. I'm in the hole more than ahead. I plan on looking for another part time job or one full time job soon, but I feel I should stick with my normal routine and catch up as much as I can for now. Today is a depressing start because while being so busy with crafting, I have other chores and random work to catch up on. I seriously need to hit the gym, but that will be depressing because it was another thing I wasn't able to do in the past week or two and I have to be reminded of my present weight loss struggle. It's better put myself and keep myself back in the habit than not at all, but I hate feeling like a slacker. I know I'm not. I just put in a lot of work in one area that didn't pay off at one particular event. I have nothing personal against Ocean City, I'm just mad that things didn't work out. I wonder where I will go next year...... I have an idea of who the mystery "cop" is, but I feel led to believe there is more of an arbitrage there, and it isn't just one man who has been messing with me. It is like they could all be the same problem, where I know they're not the right type for me or an ideal match, but it is like there are a few who want to wrestle to say they are something else......... Bradly Cooper is in the mix a little and I can't stand his type. I'm already a yeller in some ways, but feel on the verge to be a yeller in more ways, and I'm not in the mood to fight or put up a fight. I need a break from Bradly and Jon's type big time. Worst mean, unfair, impossible, and sadistic totalitarians. ......