Onward Ho

Some fails aren't easy. This past week was a set back. I've been in financial distress for awhile, but I'm upset that this festival didn't work. I at least was given more hours from my one job, but had I not went to the festival, I would have had that much more money because I could have worked at my other regular job. I am behind and not ahead and it upsets me that the festival wasn't worth it. I really love the thrill of my personal sales and entrepreneurship, but this fail was too costly. I'm in the hole more than ahead. I plan on looking for another part time job or one full time job soon, but I feel I should stick with my normal routine and catch up as much as I can for now. Today is a depressing start because while being so busy with crafting, I have other chores and random work to catch up on. I seriously need to hit the gym, but that will be depressing because it was another thing I wasn't able to do in the past week or two and I have to be reminded of my present weight loss struggle. It's better put myself and keep myself back in the habit than not at all, but I hate feeling like a slacker. I know I'm not. I just put in a lot of work in one area that didn't pay off at one particular event. I have nothing personal against Ocean City, I'm just mad that things didn't work out. I wonder where I will go next year...... I have an idea of who the mystery "cop" is, but I feel led to believe there is more of an arbitrage there, and it isn't just one man who has been messing with me. It is like they could all be the same problem, where I know they're not the right type for me or an ideal match, but it is like there are a few who want to wrestle to say they are something else......... Bradly Cooper is in the mix a little and I can't stand his type. I'm already a yeller in some ways, but feel on the verge to be a yeller in more ways, and I'm not in the mood to fight or put up a fight. I need a break from Bradly and Jon's type big time. Worst mean, unfair, impossible, and sadistic totalitarians. ......

Yes I'm not Paris

And I remain too fearless against her. You and other men can't change the way I think against Paris, Stacy, Erin, and any other woman who dares subject me to herself, her respect, her judgement. My most serious punch in the mouth I have against Paris is: As if I were ever your conquest. It's really Stacy I would beat to death mostly for both not understanding her ignorance and vainness and intentionally being entitled to it. I dog them all as my rapists for life and the men who would agreeably subject me to them. Jon Stewart is the one I hate the most,(most recently David Duchovny), and John Atchison is a disgusting ball of rape. (I know not all my sentences are grammatically correct). They do not have me won; they will not have me won in this lifetime. They have committed a severe offense against me, and yes I do confidently keep their dominance stared to death: as if I were ever their conquest, as if they ever had me won, as if I were ever willing. John Atchison is the most juvenile, intentional and intentionally provoking, rapist liar when it comes to that factor. Adam Levine is sometimes guilty of a most serious life threatening provocation. I keep him walked away from the most. You can't change the way I think or feel. I do believe in reform against lies, rape, and laws of dominance. I know I was never the most prudently tight when it comes to fun and games. When I understand the ways I get lied against and the ways people can be an be at taking themselves seriously and making up their own rules and having their way with me, things change.... I'm sure most would agree that their are certain lines and certain times when it is no longer fun and games....