You Wear Black Because

..... Yeah David, not sure what all the present talk is or how I should follow you, but I just don't care to win with you anymore. You undermine "Eddie," but it could still mean anything. I really don't think you love or accept me for who I am. You love and accept me or you don't. You could be backing down with the breast issue, but I'm not being easy. I know I am bleeding and crying on the inside, but I bleed it out just to throw it away. You seem to continue to dominantly advance and make more lunges to come after me and capture me for yourself anyway. I'm really not liking the looks of your dominant. I know I've been a tease and provocative, but I know my motives for what they were when I was asking for it. There is a timing for everything. Because of what the present story and circumstances are, I know I don't want to be treated as your sex slave or submissive like that. If I can't win with you, I expect you to be honest with what my real truth is and I don't want to be anymore livid and full of rage because of the way people have never got my truth right. If I can win, I seriously want to be left alone. The thought of you being able to convince me that I am seriously accepted, wanted, and loved has faded. I'm not the type who keeps pursuing and wanting a man who I think is wrong. I've gone without this long and know I can still go without. ....