Good Morning Rahm

You know Rahm, although you're not perfect, I am grateful that you are in my life right now for the present time. I am seeing lots of negative signs today. You're still the most respectable person even though it is me vs. another man. It is a little bit of a problem to know I'm being competitively compared for your sex. Still a little awkward to stay an attraction of a bisexual man. However, this problem is the least of my problems. I did take note of Michelle. I hate the way this is already up for debate with me and Katie because it was never a debate to begin with. I know I'm being undermined, downgraded, and underestimated for her again, and I refuse to compete with her or be at anyone's mercy as I've always have. I've always seen Katie as my cold-blooded nigger. I am a little upset with Michelle for the things she just refuses to understand about who I am as a person and my refusal to be controlled or manipulated out of the truth of my being. I hate the pressure this has to be because it is the First Lady. I'll just say, Michelle isn't close to being on the same page or wavelength as me. We have very strong differences of opinion. I hate the way people don't understand how murderous it is to keep expecting me to be challenged by somebody or something. I'm just not challenged........ Other gossip, I usually am the type that just doesn't care how I'm being talked about what I'm being labeled with. I know there will always be egocentric people who will never admit that truth. And presently, I feel comfortable in talking with you about some of my real life. Again, it isn't that I revolve around what people think of me, I am a person of leisure who gossips and talks whenever I feel like it..... The other threat I feel is both A-Rod and the movie "The Black Swan." In A-Rod's and his structured world, I know I am being impossibly, and chauvinistically pigeon-holed and forced to accept a bottomed out label WHERE I KNOW I'M NOT BOTTOMING OUT FOR ANYBODY That is why I feel terrorizingly threatened. A-Rod, Jon, and other men of the arbitrage keep wanting to force me to bottom out and accept defeat in a way where I will never accept defeat. They believe it is structurally ok to give women rankings and subject some women with other women. Jon and A-Rod have been raping me this whole time in wanting to make me my sister's inferior. They keep lying about me. Not just with her, but with other women, and of course I'll especially be the loser to any woman who has bigger breasts than mine. I know I'm not giving myself up in anyway for anyone, but they are the ones who keep lying and laying my life down as if it was always my choice to be her and other women's inferior........ Chris Martin and Gwen are separating. That is some kind of gossip in my life. I know he is associated with the Black Swan too, but he is still more to guess at than Jon and A-Rod are. Besides that story, my bet is that he wants Rihanna the most. I don't identify myself as her, and I refuse to be identified with Rihanna. I really don't know all of their gossip or drama, and that is probably as close as I'm going to get for now. Chris has a share with Jim too, and Jim is the one who I hate the most because he is even more of a cold-blooded die-hard than A-Rod and Jon put together............. What has been on your mind Rahm. I saw the airport train accident and sorry to hear about it. I don't know if that is supposed to mean some kind of message, but if it was supposed to be negative, than I wouldn't still be a choice eye candy or fantasy of yours than would I? It almost sounds like everything is already fine and peachy with you and you are just laying back choosing what you are going to indulge yourself with next.........................

Dear Rahm

Well Rahm, I did what I said I would do and more: went online shopping, got a pedicure, and yet to take myself to a good restaurant........ While the lap dance offer is back on, am I going to let it stay back on?..... Rahm, I feel the need to interrogate you now. I heard a little on the news about an LA terrorist going from the US into Canada, but was it you who terrorized it by ruining the trip? Were you further terrorizing by having a possible share with my father that was sick and psychotic? I'm still refusing to look further into that. I really wouldn't have assumed and didn't even think of that at the time. I'm not going to talk further about the statement, because there is no chance of opportunity. What a terrible guess you could have made on that one. Rahm, I do have higher expectations of you when it comes to either being quick to judge, or judging someone altogether. I just do have higher expectations, and will not be afraid to drop you like a hot pocket at the same time............The Police, I really want to stay warm with you in that "every breath you take," seduction. It shows some sort of innocent regard that you weren't trying to be terrorizing. Maybe you didn't even choose to have the share like that. IT STILL WASTED SOME OF MY SAVED EARNED MONEY. NOT ALL WAS, I AT LEAST GOT HALF BACK. I planned and planned the time for it. What does it matter when I get sick anyway. Whatever that dominate move was, I still let myself have my Canadian way with myself a little bit, first line: "Well Rahm, I did what I said I would do and more: went online shopping, got a pedicure, and yet to take myself to a good restaurant." ............Rahm while I'm staying seduced by you, you seem to be moving fast in a way I don't get, and are not being fair enough. I saw another sign, you can keep guessing at...... Right now, while I don't get everything going on with you, I enjoy the thought of you wanting to rock my cradle. I may not always. I fantasize being pampered, especially in my sickness. I know I'm not being pampered for real by you. The thought of you being seriously romancing makes me nervous, but doesn't run me off. I don't take you too seriously just yet. I can still drop you like a hot pocket anytime........

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Looking forward to my shopping and fun trip to Canada. I spent more money than I planned to last night. It could have gone towards my trip, but there it went... I want this snowy weather to be done with; I have errands tomorrow. It isn't that it really snowed today like the weather called for. I am being literal with the weather..... Ukraine has not gone unnoticed from me. Although I could make some comment, I have no literal comments to make. I'm not making figurative comments either... ..... I wonder if I'll have a better year this year at a spring festival. New ideas to try... Not too expensive to try to find out about. It would be nice to make a good amount before my trip to Canada, but I'm leaving my expectations up in the air. Not that I'm not confident. I'm not wanting the judgmental label of a blackmailer. Putting pressure on ppl: give me shopping money or else. I see the vulnerability I've had in talking on my blogs so much whether I'm admitted as a watched or popular blogger. For the sake of liberty for anyone who wants to manipulatively argue against blog writing. It is no contest. Back to making money at a craft fair ~I already know I'll have a decent amount to take, but wouldn't it be nice if I had more..... Not a lot of time left today and I'm hungry right now. captains log, signing off.