Just So Many Thoughts

Where do I begin? ......... ------------------- Love life? still crappy. every now and then I have numerous thoughts in mind but will remain a mixture of being mysterious and outspoken.... -------------------------- There is always something to research and look up. One of the key factors is the matter of time but with how life is, I can be spontaneous, leisure, or just not care during any time. One thing I did get around to doing some research is the religion of sikhism. Before I have my babble about literal, I don't mind BSing around and even being a little annoying in a figurative sense. Figurative sense is the silly idea of "I believe in being one sick #@%^& person! Maybe some sick people would have contests as some Christians or other believers do with self righteousness to see who could be the most sick. It could almost be compared to some kind of sorority or fraternity. It could be a code word used in the communistic system of shares that is trying to say in a figurative literal way that a person really is a sick person. That was just a dumb idea to throw out there. -------------------------------------- Adding on with a general thought that I would use in this situation is that I am disagreeable with the idea: Well, if you have done something or have been some way at sometime in your life, you have no right in either: being guarded, judgemental, snobbish, or whatever along those lines against that person. ----------------------------- But getting back on track and talking about the literal.... I did do some research. It wasn't a full study where I had a full book. The book was specialized in religion unlike a typical encyclopedia, but it might as well been in an encyclopedia with how brief and short of a description it was. Of course it is another religion where I do not plan on converting but I did pick up on things that I did and didn't like about it. It seems in this religion, there is an emphasis on a lot of equality. Equality that is not just meant in terms of financial class that most usually would assume first, but also equality amongst men and women. Of course equal rights is never something to argue with, but when other characteristics are thrown in there, the idea of equality is given a whole new meaning. While the religion denies that it has a leader, pastor, preacher, or heirarchy of some sort, it still does have something called a guru. Guru's are still meant to be treated as equals but they could be compared to a prophet where they are speaking god's voice. When guru's are given some kind of praise or treated as a god, they are known to deny themself of the god complex. Of course I find this respectable. It seems in this religion though that more people have more of an awareness of what it means to have a god complex. I just wonder how the religion is operated without some sense of hierarchy? Especially with new converts. If there is no leader and they are all equal, how does anyone expect to learn anything or get anywhere without hardly knowing anything about the religion? Maybe I take it to the extreme with hierarchy, but it is something to wonder about with how it works. Of course I don't like karma, so that is another bad thing when it is thrown in with the word "equal." --------------------------------------------- In more thoughts, there is just a lot of news stories isn't there? I already know for myself how people lie, and sometimes, there are some things that are meant to be interpreted in a different way than it is presented. There is more than meets the eye and when interpreted and codified could mean something totally different.... I still do not consider myself a relieved person. There are a lot of things that still upset me and cause me distress. Some instances, I can find some relief. When listening to one conversation last night with Jon, I liked how he recognized some motives and reasoning behind war. Sometimes motives or causes are wrongly assumed and it is painted to be something that was never purposed at all. Of course with Jon, he isn't always specific and can always relate one thought to anything at anytime whether it even be fair or truthful. But I did like hearing recognition of some details of war. Some people actually do take the time to think more about things. --------------------------------------- One additional thing that has been on my mind besides being judged and a victim of another's possessiveness recently, is being bothered with obsessiveness. I already get I am a target of a source against discrimination. Whatever people say or judge, I really havn't cared about at all and I don't care what people think of me not caring over the matter. I am tired of the obsessiveness though and people going overboard at telling me how the agenda of my life should be and that I should be dictated around someone's communist, and at times, extremely stupid structure. -------------------------------------------- In other thoughts, it is back to my personal life. I am excited for my hobbies this month. Today is my first day to run a practice run. At the end of the month, I have my first demonstration that I will be doing with gourds. I took another leap by investing a little more in it to be ready for the day. So, hopefully I will get lucky and make a lot of sales. Crafters do supposedly sell more the days they do their demonstrations, so I hope the odds work for me and I sell a few more. I'm even going to do an invite on facebook. I could intentionally get bad karma from some because I havn't shown up to all invited events but maybe there will be random people or people who don't believe in karma or just don't care and will show up anyway.