Random Thoughts

Not a whole lot going on. I'm excited for these next two weekends. I have a craft demonstration this weekend and a marathon next weekend. I'm going to have to walk later in the day if I am going to be going on a walk because it is practically 100 degrees today. Financial thoughts continue to knaw at me and it isn't always easy at taking it easy right now. I am a happy crafter but will hopefully and eventually find better days.
Man drama
This week has been surprising and not surprising. Depending on the who and what.... I don't have much of a comment this week to make with Jon. Just simply no comment. I notice some cattiness but don't have a lot to say over it right now. ........I think there may be one or two other random guys in the media right now but I have no comment either and just keeping some thoughts to myself.......
Some confusion with Anger Management has been cleared up. It looks like the Anger Management is on me. Ha ha. Not much comment in that instance either but I could talk more about the show. First off, I'm anorexic to names and blended looks. I'm anorexic with how Charlie or the producers and writers are having fun. Charlie continues to be more surprising. Before I was paranoid with 2 and a Half Men, I really liked the show. It made me laugh and the opening song I sang along all the time or just on my own sometimes. Catchy tune. men men men men manly men men men...... ha. I do see Charlie as a friendly character despite literal problems. I take his flirting a little more serious than I have had. Not as in a serious relationship, but thinking ~Is Charlie Sheen really making a pass at me?~ It is both flattering and embarassing with how the show is written. I do notice the cattiness at possible connections that he shares with other guys and I notice the shares I have with other girls. I thought to myself ~oh god I'm in so much trouble~ But back to the flirting and why I think he is being serious: it is the most obvious issues that he is picking fights with: Judgement overall and with some more specific areas; Who is the Angry one; Who is the Therapist or Dr? They are provoking on the surface and could only lead to more provoking or flirting. He is definitely being an ice breaker or introducer of drama. If I'm in trouble, I just wonder how much trouble it is that I am in.........
Skipped Wilfred and Louie. Curious a little about Russell. I think it was the one commercial that confused me when everyone said their name was Charlie, except for Louie. They all have their own shows though aside from Anger Management. Russell's show is on at the same time though when I'm watching another show. So, I would just have to watch the episode at another time if I did. I usually don't stay up that late though when they repeat.  I may get around to watching it but it may just be another show I don't like.

Just So Many Thoughts

Where do I begin? ......... ------------------- Love life? still crappy. every now and then I have numerous thoughts in mind but will remain a mixture of being mysterious and outspoken.... -------------------------- There is always something to research and look up. One of the key factors is the matter of time but with how life is, I can be spontaneous, leisure, or just not care during any time. One thing I did get around to doing some research is the religion of sikhism. Before I have my babble about literal, I don't mind BSing around and even being a little annoying in a figurative sense. Figurative sense is the silly idea of "I believe in being one sick #@%^& person! Maybe some sick people would have contests as some Christians or other believers do with self righteousness to see who could be the most sick. It could almost be compared to some kind of sorority or fraternity. It could be a code word used in the communistic system of shares that is trying to say in a figurative literal way that a person really is a sick person. That was just a dumb idea to throw out there. -------------------------------------- Adding on with a general thought that I would use in this situation is that I am disagreeable with the idea: Well, if you have done something or have been some way at sometime in your life, you have no right in either: being guarded, judgemental, snobbish, or whatever along those lines against that person. ----------------------------- But getting back on track and talking about the literal.... I did do some research. It wasn't a full study where I had a full book. The book was specialized in religion unlike a typical encyclopedia, but it might as well been in an encyclopedia with how brief and short of a description it was. Of course it is another religion where I do not plan on converting but I did pick up on things that I did and didn't like about it. It seems in this religion, there is an emphasis on a lot of equality. Equality that is not just meant in terms of financial class that most usually would assume first, but also equality amongst men and women. Of course equal rights is never something to argue with, but when other characteristics are thrown in there, the idea of equality is given a whole new meaning. While the religion denies that it has a leader, pastor, preacher, or heirarchy of some sort, it still does have something called a guru. Guru's are still meant to be treated as equals but they could be compared to a prophet where they are speaking god's voice. When guru's are given some kind of praise or treated as a god, they are known to deny themself of the god complex. Of course I find this respectable. It seems in this religion though that more people have more of an awareness of what it means to have a god complex. I just wonder how the religion is operated without some sense of hierarchy? Especially with new converts. If there is no leader and they are all equal, how does anyone expect to learn anything or get anywhere without hardly knowing anything about the religion? Maybe I take it to the extreme with hierarchy, but it is something to wonder about with how it works. Of course I don't like karma, so that is another bad thing when it is thrown in with the word "equal." --------------------------------------------- In more thoughts, there is just a lot of news stories isn't there? I already know for myself how people lie, and sometimes, there are some things that are meant to be interpreted in a different way than it is presented. There is more than meets the eye and when interpreted and codified could mean something totally different.... I still do not consider myself a relieved person. There are a lot of things that still upset me and cause me distress. Some instances, I can find some relief. When listening to one conversation last night with Jon, I liked how he recognized some motives and reasoning behind war. Sometimes motives or causes are wrongly assumed and it is painted to be something that was never purposed at all. Of course with Jon, he isn't always specific and can always relate one thought to anything at anytime whether it even be fair or truthful. But I did like hearing recognition of some details of war. Some people actually do take the time to think more about things. --------------------------------------- One additional thing that has been on my mind besides being judged and a victim of another's possessiveness recently, is being bothered with obsessiveness. I already get I am a target of a source against discrimination. Whatever people say or judge, I really havn't cared about at all and I don't care what people think of me not caring over the matter. I am tired of the obsessiveness though and people going overboard at telling me how the agenda of my life should be and that I should be dictated around someone's communist, and at times, extremely stupid structure. -------------------------------------------- In other thoughts, it is back to my personal life. I am excited for my hobbies this month. Today is my first day to run a practice run. At the end of the month, I have my first demonstration that I will be doing with gourds. I took another leap by investing a little more in it to be ready for the day. So, hopefully I will get lucky and make a lot of sales. Crafters do supposedly sell more the days they do their demonstrations, so I hope the odds work for me and I sell a few more. I'm even going to do an invite on facebook. I could intentionally get bad karma from some because I havn't shown up to all invited events but maybe there will be random people or people who don't believe in karma or just don't care and will show up anyway.