Saturday, November 26, 2011

USING MY IMAGINATION

I USUALLY DON'T LET MYSELF GET TOO ATTACHED OR SOLD WHEN I GET LED ON. I HAVE MY OWN INTERNAL THOUGHTS WITH HOW MUCH OF A FOOL I AM, THE HOPES/EXPECTATIONS, AND BEING REAL ABOUT THINGS. SOMETIMES EASIER SAID THAN DONE. WITH HOW THE MEDIA IS NOW TAKING CONTROL; I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO GIVE SOME KIND OF SAY.
SETH SETH SETH......THE CONNECTION WITH OHIO STATE COACH AND NORM MCDONALD. I DON'T EXPECT EVERYONE TO KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME. SOMETIMES IT GETS CONFUSING WHETHER A PERSON IS SADISTIC OR JUST PLAIN IGNORANT. I'M NOT TOO HARD ON THE IGNORANT BECAUSE I KNOW THAT I DON'T HAVE EVERYONE MEMORIZED, AND DON'T EXPECT MYSELF TO. THE BENEFIT OF BEING LEISURELY. IN THIS SITUATION, THE IGNORANCE IS BASED ON MY DISLIKE FOR NORM AND MAGGIE.

...........DURING SOME OF MY UNEMPLOYMENT AND HIKING TIME, THIS SONG REALLY WAS A SONG TO RUN WITH AND GIVE MYSELF SOME KIND OF HOPE FOR THE FUTURE:


WHILE THE IDIOTS MADE A SONG FOR MAGGIE (WHICH WOULD BE PERSONALLY DAMNING TO MY FUTURE DREAM OF MICHIGAN AND I WON'T LET IT) I STILL AM A FAN. IT DOESN'T MEAN I CHEER FOR MAGGIE WHEN I LIKE THE RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS. I LIKE MICHIGAN FOR THE GIST OF THE SONG. WHILE MICHIGAN CAN BE A SYMBOL FOR THE SONG, THE SONG IS ABOUT THE GIST OF THE SONG. I'M SURE THERE ARE FRIENDLY PEOPLE IN MICHIGAN.

WHILE I'M ON THE TOPIC OF MAGGIE AND NORM, WHETHER OR NOT MY GOSSIP IS A BAD REFLECTION, I DON'T CARE. THEY ARE THE PIGS. MAGGIE ESPECIALLY IS EGOCENTRIC AND THEY BOTH GIVE THEMSELVES EGOCENTRIC CREDIT IN SO MANY WAYS WHERE THEY SERIOUSLY THINK THAT I LIVE FOR THEM IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. TALK ABOUT SADISTIC PIGS. THEY ARE ON THE LIST OF PEOPLE I IGNORE.
SETH IT WOULD BREAK MY HEART ALREADY IF I HAD TO PUT YOU ON THE RAPE LIST WITH MAGGIE AND NORM. I DON'T MAKE DECISIONS QUICKLY ALL OF THE TIME. SOMETIMES I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO MAKE IMPULSIVE DECISIONS BUT UNTIL I FEEL I KNOW THINGS FOR MYSELF, I REMAIN INCONCLUSIVE. SO, I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW SETH IS GOING TO GAME FROM HERE OR HOW SERIOUSLY HE TAKES THE MEDIA OR IS CONTROLLED BY THE MEDIA.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Dear Anderson

I watched your show again today. While the issue you brought up is not a present severe issue; it was an issue in the past. Not sure how to take you with some people either....If I was "Angel," I know the truth of my innocence myself. But, if you were being figurative and not literal; I am not going to be manipulated out of telling it like it is with some people. I definitely would see this as a double standard on your behalf where it is ok for some people to have their thoughts and opinions about others, while if I share, it gets manipulated in an extreme way. I'm not backing down in my perspective and aim of the names I have already given you and stories I have said about some people.
In my personal world and perspective; I consider myself very carefree and numb to the issue. I feel I've already experienced a lot of uncontrolled exploits and violations that could include me being or not being naked. Feeling violated isn't always sexual.... Anyway, it isn't a personal preference of wanting to be exploited.

How do I think in a general political perspective? There definitely should be some laws made where women or even men should have some defense or lawful rights where it is illegal for the exploit. (I used to think the 4th ammendment right to privacy was the law but apparently not). I think if people were serious and they wanted more structure with the legalities of it all, than if it were to fall in place, the online world would be more structured and legal. Every website would have their own security settings where the guard would intentionally delete nude photos. If it was a legal online pornography site, than there would be legal consent that that person who is in the nude gives their consent that they want to be online.
As for the guy? Not much really to say, he gives the impression that is a controlling womanizer.

But Anderson, right now, there is obviously some things I simply can't do in my time frame. I'm getting ready to adapt to whatever future I have. I am eventually going to once again be looking for a job. If I don't have enough ebay sales; if nobody is willing to hire, or if there is nobody willing to be reasonable or fair in a job; if there is not any control freak who refuses to give, than I will be a stripper. Shamelessly.

Sexual exploits, nudity, and pornography should rightfully have legalities with it. But as for me taking anything personally anymore? There is a such thing as time and experiences that happen throughout time. Changes happen as well whether the changes are preferred or not.
In ending with the best positive note: life is a highway. I really like the song and can't think of the singer. But in the highway there are so many routes and sometimes there are good routes and bad routes that people come across. A mixture of "life is a high way," and "that's life."