Window of Time, Under Pressure

Personally, I honestly feel like I'm being too brave for what is on my mind, but I'll just say it anyway. I will refer to it as "the time of an open window." There are times that I hate that I have to admit that I sometimes play the game. I have always thought caring about someone vs. playing the game really clash. Sometimes one just has a lust or burning for another person. There are other times when one can wonder if a relationship would ever come about. There is a line to draw in being patient with someone vs. the degradation of playing the game. A person wants to try to protect their self respect and their ego, but sometimes if that person shows too much availability or waits around too much for someone that person almost sacrifices too much of their self. One of the 9 lives are lost and that person becomes a little more doglike. I wish I could word it better. The song "Under Pressure," pops up in my head. A person can only be tried and tested so much when they burn for the other. It is important to have communication going on and feeling understood and that you can understand the other. Sometimes some communication gaps make it more impossible and more difficult with that open window period. Sometimes a person just knows on their own when to close a window. While I have been single for a long time and know that I'm not officially with anyone, I sometimes do get a sense of guilt. If I know I want someone and burn for them, and think that they could want and burn for me, I do find it hard to wreck it on my own. I have wrecked some things on my own before and have understood why I intentionally wreck or ruin something. It is all about the open window time period. Will I stay or will I go? Sometimes timing is everything, and while a person may pass up another person it isn't always that the person won't have another chance if there were ever another opportunity. Sometimes the timing isn't always right with both people. When there are no seen lies and the game is a little more fair, I can say what I just said. I feel I can guess better than say "why won't you just admit you don't like me?" Under pressure. I hope to get put out of my misery soon.