As the Sarah Turns

This week was alright. I got a second job. I am going to keep the night job until I decide otherwise. I'm happy for myself. This other part time job looks like it is going to go well. I will definitely be having another busy summer. For now anyway. While there is definitely some attention that I hate from men, there is a lot of other man attention that I do like, while there is other attention to say nothing about......... I just want a lot of money and I will be happy. I don't really have a lot to say about some of the guys. I'm losing interest in Dale and I'm upset about it. I see some signs of other people he could be associated with. It isn't that I think Denny W. owns autism, he thinks he owns it and any other random whatever he gets egocentric with. Denny W. has been a morbid disgust and will always be a morbid disgust. I need justice for the sick harassing stalking predator he has been. I also think Dale talks to people who gossip about me, and he puts other's sources of info first before he gets to know me. Something about Dale that I don't trust and know I don't know. He is against me for some reason ..... There is another guy who has been brought up and who I've hardly talked about that I have some interest in.............. While I can't deny I have an attraction for someone certain, I can't get over this is it. There is nowhere else to go. It isn't that he is the last man alive. I am entrapped and helpless to him and them in a certain way. It is like an impossible plateau. I can't do anymore within myself. I just can't get over I'm at this point. I have no clue at how things are going from here. .... Who knows. Maybe I'll make so much money this summer that the sky will be the limit with just how much more I could do. Maybe my life will be that much more impossible with my own question of reason of an obvious secret.