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21 hour speech? I get the gist of your share with Michael....... I already said I want a Mr. Goodbar. Although it seems he wants to be on my side, he hasn't fixed the way he has been on my bad side....... Your share really is rooting for the bigger fight; a fight that should matter and does matter. There is an overall bigger point..... While all words are not clear of how everything sums up with what the words are getting at and mean at the end; there is still not a completely bridged trust.......I think you're going to make me cry again Tom, but you havn't confirmed it yet. I'm guessing the money is still on me, or you have a thing for Gwyneth. If it is Michael who is still wanting to chase me, it seems the money could be on me, or possibly someone else........ I hate what real terror and fear I feel cursed to with either of you. While this share does make effort of wanting to be on my side and make more obvious effort for me and a willingness to be loyal, another fear is that we could still be in the same maddening repetitive story. The story could be different because I may be getting lied to, and what is life when you live a lie? Fear, fear, fear. The trust hasn't been completely bridged. I really appreciated the acknowledgement with Green Eggs and Ham and the ways, whens, and even clear as water ways to take NO for an answer. I hate the way the competitive aftermath is always the same with domination games with who is saying no to who and what it is that no is being said about. The vulnerability factor is still there when it comes to taking "no," for an answer and who the real liars are. The cuteness of Green Eggs and Ham had some beauty to it, but sometimes when you want to get the message across of taking "no" for an answer, you seriously can't always be cute about it. I understand the yada yada of some professionalism and the national audience crowd it is, but I'm sure you would understand the sophistication of different audiences or even individuals. I'm staying around for now...............

Just going with it

Tom, I'm not liking your socialism. If you are lying at face value with how much you think he is your best friend; I am just not like that. You looked pretty angry when you said what you thought of him, but maybe your face value is being seriously friendly. What a spot to put me in Tom. Whether or not you are his friend, or lying. It isn't cool for him to express dominance over me the way he is. No, he doesn't own me. Right now, the job that I have is only that. I have written some blogs about what I think of socialism too. I'll just sum it up; I am everything against socialism. His own violent chauvinism and sexual discrimation (Through other networks too) is his own doing. It isn't that I'm intentionally bringing my own personal politics to work where I am the original problem. He brings the problem on his self and I don't care about his "respected thought" on whatever he thinks of me. I'm not his inferior with his socialism (and in a list of other ways where I also know I am making the choice to refuse to be tested by his grubbiness). I am there to do what my literal job is. It is so offensive to me with THE WAY YOU are subjecting me to his decision-making. Maybe you're too dense to notice or maybe that is your rape and you aren't any different from him. However things fall in to place, you better know that I will never feel inferior to what he thinks or "his infinite wisdom," thinks. I hate you Tom.