SNL had some blessings

I really do want people to know that I told both my mom and dad that I said it to their face that I love them. It has been so long since I have told my parents that I love them. My heart has been ice for awhile; to actually say it makes it an eventful day. Its still awkward. I'm not saying what terms we are on, but I did tell my parents that I love them.

Before I get into SNL; even though I have so much adoration for Jim Carey; I am still available and my statement earlier still stands on Twitter.
Later blog on philosophy: Elaborated thoughts of experience and opportunity.

You know, as much as Jim's personality shines, I'm still having a hard time figuring him out or understanding him. Maybe he doesn't want me to know or understand him on a more deep or personal level.
Anyway, Mindy. I take it as a relief that he would be bold to propose like that. I have my own issues with Mindy, but overall, I really appreciate Mindy. I understand the complexity of the situation. She really wasn't fair in communication. She had such a message, and I feel if there has anyone who has coached me well in life, Mindy gets a lot of credit for the message and purpose that she preached and teached.
To remind people, my father never raped me. He is a control freak. I was going through a hard time and will own up to the fact that I went off the deep end. As communication furthers and develops, I think there really are some Dr's that are admitting that I'm not a schiz. At the same time, I havn't forgotten my own sacrifices and sufferings. It has been 10 years since my severe hysteria. I think people really would like to use anything they can grasp as an excuse to say I deserve more torture; I will again say that I will never deny myself of human rights.
Back to Mindy......... Even though she taught me so many positive things; I don't identify completely with her, I can't say I am a true follower. I would say if there was a real contest of modesty, morality, or who is a more dedicated Christian (I really hate having to say it like this) but Mindy would win. I still have a serious issue with communications, which really is a crucial point, but for the other descriptors she would have the better reputation of matching those.
I hate to say it like that. I don't want her to be a vulnerable adult, or communistically and tortuously tested severely. I know she can decide things for herself, but for other people that I like, I want her to be protected too.

Jim, there are a couple of scenes that I will have to go back and rewatch. Sometimes, it feels like there is so much info at once and with high stress, figuring out how to decode and take it, and having emotions and a heart, sometimes it gets really overwhelming. Other times, I feel worn out.

I loved the conclusion of the show. No, I can't say I'm a desperate Hobo at the time. I really would rather silence myself and be longsuffering for my parents and sister right now to have toleration and a reasonably said assertive separation.
But, back to the show's ending, I laughed so hard at the hobo band's negligence of the audience. Not only is it a sincere laugh, but it is a compassionate heart felt laugh that the rich upper class probably hates in the worst way.
They are already desperate Hobos that are desperately performing and at the same time; they still have their strength and pride to not become the audience's slave. I laughed so hard when they complained about the music and they said "no," and continued on singing out their sincere, real hobo heart. Hobo pride!!!!!!!!
Some may not understand. I think outside cookie cutters. I have no problem with a hobo keeping their pride. They are the needy. They are the ones who are hurting. Does that mean that they should have a license to be whatever? No. Yes, they still should be entitled to dignity and freedom, but at that point, I understand how hard it must be to not be an anarchist.
They do not let the rich take advantage, and even though it isn't a real scenario, it is an influenced broadcast of hobo pride and not becoming the slave of another just because they have nothing left.

I love you middle class and poverty class in a political way. In an understanding way. At the same time; I'm still my own complicated snowflake. I am still one who is difficult to manipulate or take advantage of. Even in my own financial class.
I am angry with the wealthy, because there really are some wealthy who are either ignorant of the tyranny or slaving mentality, or they are consciously aware and still get away with it anyway.

In this situation, I am picking the middle class and poverty class because I really understand the suffering and heart ache. I understand freedom and rights and it is so painfully hard to look sometimes at the real vulnerability and pressures. It is a hard thing to deal with. It is very complicated and complex to deal with.
Besides myself, I really do hope for others to have an alert and thoughtful heart and mind. I hope people really do increase intellect and understanding and find ways to stand and keep their ground. I hope that people will work a little harder for morality sometimes, not in an extreme religious way, even though it is still a free will if some want to be that way in any type of religion: monk, nun, rabbi, buddhist. I want people to understand balance. I want people to be less lazy and more mindful. Just because a person isn't mindful of a favored interest of another doesn't make them stupid either. It is their own free will to choose what a person wants to put their mind to. I hope people will know when and how to make good choices sometimes when having to deal with some issues.

I know I'm not perfect. I'm not the most brilliant. It is an overwhelming and I think a really large world sometimes.
I like to share another song from "a few of my favorite things." No, he's not a thing, but its good inspiration:

Happy New Year

Ok, it seems it has been awhile since I've written a blog. This one is more reflective, low key, and traditional.
I may not be as far as I want to be in life. Even though I still believe in my snowflake theory and uniqueness, I found a little bit of relief in an article of somewhat comparative relation:

http://feeds.bignewsnetwork.com/?rid=41687392&cat=145bb158ac2f80f2

It leads me to my next resolution: I really want to buy the Rosetta Stone and learn a new language. No, I sure do not know 5 different languages, but one language is enough of a start. I'll give myself about a year to really develop and ingrain a new language in me, then I might move on to learn another language. It is a tough decision. I already have a few high school Spanish classes, but am nowhere near fluent. I'm thinking of Spanish, Russian, or pick out an Asian language. I think it is either Japanese or Chinese that is said to have the largest vocabulary in the world, so it might take a couple of years to master an Asian language.

Anyway, I lost more weight without great effort. So, it is one thing to be happy about. I really did lose a pant size. I was so excited. I think it is wierd to have lost so much with hardly even trying. I didn't make any weight loss plans at all. During one period in my life when I became overweight, I mean I really really planned to lose that weight. I lost 30 pounds. I really had to spend a lot of time in research, and in breaking a bad habit, it took a lot of effort in many routes to be very self-disciplined in losing all that weight.
This time, its only 10 lbs that I lost, but I find it very surprising that I lost 10 lbs and a pant size without even trying. Maybe it was due to a period of continued habit. I don't know if I will be losing any more weight by steady habit, but I am satisfied with the weight I'm at.

I also started on a new financial goal. While my finances are not impressive at all, I heard that going bankrupt is actually better for my credit than a continued low credit score. It will be a long term goal to have some sort of impressive savings for my literal job class.

I'm still working on crafts and developing skills. Time is another issue I've learned, where it seems I never have enough time.

Anyway, it has been another depressing and angry year, but I have a few things I can be happy about with some self satisfaction.